Monday, October 31, 2005
Well the bathroom is coming on. FIL and I spent all of Sunday tiling the bathroom. The shower is in and not leaking but we’re serious tired. Sunday night got worse. Little Miss refuses to sleep and so I spent an uncomfortable night on the sofa. We think it’s her teeth.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
Well, I’ve tightened up the shower and some of the leaks seemed to have dried up but one hasn’t. Still, I’m feeling a little bit more optimistic than yesterday about it.
Little Miss had a very unsettled night last night and so did we. She seemed to wake at 2:30 am and didn’t want to go back to sleep. LSW stayed up with her and eventually she fell asleep about 4.00 but neither I nor LSW had much sleep.
MIL and her cousin turned up today. Little Miss was on form and charmed the socks off the cousin. It seems she wasn’t affected too much by the lack of sleep and was showing off like she was on stage. LSW looked very tired all day but she held up ok.
However, MIL didn’t seem too happy with me for some reason. LSW picked up on it first but didn’t say anything until we talked about it. Neither of us can think of a single thing I could have done to offend her.
I’m still getting the cover note together for the mobile job I’m thinking about. We’ll have to see how it goes from there.
Little Miss had a very unsettled night last night and so did we. She seemed to wake at 2:30 am and didn’t want to go back to sleep. LSW stayed up with her and eventually she fell asleep about 4.00 but neither I nor LSW had much sleep.
MIL and her cousin turned up today. Little Miss was on form and charmed the socks off the cousin. It seems she wasn’t affected too much by the lack of sleep and was showing off like she was on stage. LSW looked very tired all day but she held up ok.
However, MIL didn’t seem too happy with me for some reason. LSW picked up on it first but didn’t say anything until we talked about it. Neither of us can think of a single thing I could have done to offend her.
I’m still getting the cover note together for the mobile job I’m thinking about. We’ll have to see how it goes from there.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
It’s amazing how quickly things can turn on a straight downer. The refitted shower started leaking again last night and we didn’t notice until this morning. There was a big puddle on the bath. LSW is borderline hysterical about it, which in turn Little Miss is picking up on. LSW also said that if it wasn’t for Little Miss, she would go and do something ‘stupid’. Just great!
This morning I had LSW stressing at me in one ear while I was holding Little Miss, who was screaming down the other. Little Miss’s teeth are really bothering her, she’s off her food. She wasn’t well enough for her MMR. I feel she’s picking on the tension between LSW and myself, which is making her more ‘clingy’.
I really am at my wits end with all this; I don’t know which way to turn. I can’t talk to LSW about what’s happening and I don’t really have any friends who I can turn to about it. My family is over 200 miles away and to be honest this is one of the lowest moments I’ve ever had.
Nothing back from any of the agencies I’ve applied to and this happens just as work has turned the screw one last time; they want to downgrade our development tools to an unusable level.
And to top is all, the bank which I closed my account with, is now sending me letters complaining that I’m using my old account card. The card in question was stolen and cancelled. Its inability to handle Fraud was the main reason I closed that account and now I have to go through for all this again!
Last night after work, looking after Little Miss and doing the shopping, I was too tired to work on the game. I was even too tired to play MXO. And yesterday I thought we were beginning to climb out of the hole we’re in.
This morning I had LSW stressing at me in one ear while I was holding Little Miss, who was screaming down the other. Little Miss’s teeth are really bothering her, she’s off her food. She wasn’t well enough for her MMR. I feel she’s picking on the tension between LSW and myself, which is making her more ‘clingy’.
I really am at my wits end with all this; I don’t know which way to turn. I can’t talk to LSW about what’s happening and I don’t really have any friends who I can turn to about it. My family is over 200 miles away and to be honest this is one of the lowest moments I’ve ever had.
Nothing back from any of the agencies I’ve applied to and this happens just as work has turned the screw one last time; they want to downgrade our development tools to an unusable level.
And to top is all, the bank which I closed my account with, is now sending me letters complaining that I’m using my old account card. The card in question was stolen and cancelled. Its inability to handle Fraud was the main reason I closed that account and now I have to go through for all this again!
Last night after work, looking after Little Miss and doing the shopping, I was too tired to work on the game. I was even too tired to play MXO. And yesterday I thought we were beginning to climb out of the hole we’re in.
Monday, October 24, 2005
Little Miss is slightly poorly. She’s had a low level cold for ages but now we think she’s got a stomach bug. LSW has been knocked off her feet with it over the weekend and I’ll admit to beginning to wobble myself.
We had better luck with the shower. FIL and I managed to set it up and it worked with no leaks. There were a couple of wobbly moments but now we’ve got to tile the bathroom, put the new floor down and hopefully that will be that in a couple of weeks.
No Luck bidding for work using this rent a coder thing. I’ll have to look into my CV in to see if I can attract any projects.
We had better luck with the shower. FIL and I managed to set it up and it worked with no leaks. There were a couple of wobbly moments but now we’ve got to tile the bathroom, put the new floor down and hopefully that will be that in a couple of weeks.
No Luck bidding for work using this rent a coder thing. I’ll have to look into my CV in to see if I can attract any projects.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Work has started on the bathroom. FIL and I ripped the shower, some of the tiles out of the bathroom. We found that one of the supports in the bathroom had rotted through. LSW has bought the replacement tiles and I think she wants to put the old shower back on but we’ll wait and see.
LSW and I have been talking about how we are. It’s not the best at the moment but at least we’re talking.
Work has upped the ante again. The current batch of work is set to be finished in the second week in November. Oh Lord and I’m going to have to work the overtime on this for free.
LSW and I have been talking about how we are. It’s not the best at the moment but at least we’re talking.
Work has upped the ante again. The current batch of work is set to be finished in the second week in November. Oh Lord and I’m going to have to work the overtime on this for free.
Friday, October 14, 2005
LSW and I had a serious heart to heart last night. For the first time we admitted to ourselves that we were at the lowest point ever and if it wasn’t for Little Miss, we probably would have split up by now. It’s quite a hard thing to admit and sometimes to get LSW to talk about her innermost feelings is like getting blood out of a stone.
The catalyst for all this has been the leaking shower/bath, which we discovered last night has ruined the bathroom carpet. I’m shutting the shower off at lunchtime and ripping up the carpet tonight. It means no shower until the bathroom is retiled and the new shower is plumbed in. Not good! Its just added extra pressure to our relationship which, IMO, is close to breaking point.
Little Miss is unaffected by all this because it doesn’t show while she’s awake but there will come a time that it will affect her.
Perhaps it’s because the only thing I can see our future holding is us splitting up and this time next year I’ll be updating this blog from a tiny bed-sit or caravan somewhere run down and awful. It does have this feeling of inevitability.
The catalyst for all this has been the leaking shower/bath, which we discovered last night has ruined the bathroom carpet. I’m shutting the shower off at lunchtime and ripping up the carpet tonight. It means no shower until the bathroom is retiled and the new shower is plumbed in. Not good! Its just added extra pressure to our relationship which, IMO, is close to breaking point.
Little Miss is unaffected by all this because it doesn’t show while she’s awake but there will come a time that it will affect her.
Perhaps it’s because the only thing I can see our future holding is us splitting up and this time next year I’ll be updating this blog from a tiny bed-sit or caravan somewhere run down and awful. It does have this feeling of inevitability.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Well most of the tiles for the bathroom have been chosen. LSW is in her element, you can see pattern design and layout out plans floating behind her eyes when she’s looking round the bathroom at the moment. Thankfully a plumber is coming round tonight (hopefully) to quote for the job in question.
LSW and I have been hardly talking. Not because we’re having trouble, just because we’re passing out as soon as Little Miss goes to bed. I went over our finances last night and we are still solvent but I’ve still got things to pay out which means that things will remain tight until after the New Year.
I’ve had nothing back from any of the jobs I’ve put forward my CV for. Work has eased off a little but I still feel very uncomfortable working here. Things are really tense. The share price is crashing, the work after the end of the year has dried up and on top of all that, and the latest release is being difficult.
I’m a programmer get me out of here.
LSW and I have been hardly talking. Not because we’re having trouble, just because we’re passing out as soon as Little Miss goes to bed. I went over our finances last night and we are still solvent but I’ve still got things to pay out which means that things will remain tight until after the New Year.
I’ve had nothing back from any of the jobs I’ve put forward my CV for. Work has eased off a little but I still feel very uncomfortable working here. Things are really tense. The share price is crashing, the work after the end of the year has dried up and on top of all that, and the latest release is being difficult.
I’m a programmer get me out of here.
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Better (I think)
Little Miss four new teeth still haven’t cut. She’s incredibly clingy and tearful one moment and the next she’s fine. I spent a good hour last night helping her play with her farm and she was introducing me to each of the animals. Mind you if I hear that old McDonald song one more time …….
Well, we’ve now got a serious problem with the bathroom shower. Damp has got behind the tiles and is forcing the shower off its water supply pipes. The upshot of this means the bathroom needs re-tiling and a new shower is going to have to plumbed in. It’s got to be done quite quickly because the shower is now leaking quite badly.
LSW and I had a long chat about the future. We’re going to have to cut back on our spending a lot. I’m going to give myself 50 a month just for spending and all the rest has to go on savings and emergency funds. Things between us are tense but no where near as bad as they were earlier in the year. The Italy trip seems so long ago now and I would want to go back right now.
It just feels we don’t get a break from all the trouble we’re getting.
Well, we’ve now got a serious problem with the bathroom shower. Damp has got behind the tiles and is forcing the shower off its water supply pipes. The upshot of this means the bathroom needs re-tiling and a new shower is going to have to plumbed in. It’s got to be done quite quickly because the shower is now leaking quite badly.
LSW and I had a long chat about the future. We’re going to have to cut back on our spending a lot. I’m going to give myself 50 a month just for spending and all the rest has to go on savings and emergency funds. Things between us are tense but no where near as bad as they were earlier in the year. The Italy trip seems so long ago now and I would want to go back right now.
It just feels we don’t get a break from all the trouble we’re getting.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Back Again
Well, it’s been a while. Since then we’ve been to Italy and back (very nice). Little Miss is now running around the house and shouting at us (even nicer) and LSW and I are ill (Not Nice).
Work is killing me. The CV is out there but I haven’t heard anything back yet. I’ll start calling around in a bit.
MXO is progressing nicely and I’ve got it down to half an hour a night which is enjoyable.
Work is killing me. The CV is out there but I haven’t heard anything back yet. I’ll start calling around in a bit.
MXO is progressing nicely and I’ve got it down to half an hour a night which is enjoyable.
