Friday, October 14, 2005
LSW and I had a serious heart to heart last night. For the first time we admitted to ourselves that we were at the lowest point ever and if it wasn’t for Little Miss, we probably would have split up by now. It’s quite a hard thing to admit and sometimes to get LSW to talk about her innermost feelings is like getting blood out of a stone.
The catalyst for all this has been the leaking shower/bath, which we discovered last night has ruined the bathroom carpet. I’m shutting the shower off at lunchtime and ripping up the carpet tonight. It means no shower until the bathroom is retiled and the new shower is plumbed in. Not good! Its just added extra pressure to our relationship which, IMO, is close to breaking point.
Little Miss is unaffected by all this because it doesn’t show while she’s awake but there will come a time that it will affect her.
Perhaps it’s because the only thing I can see our future holding is us splitting up and this time next year I’ll be updating this blog from a tiny bed-sit or caravan somewhere run down and awful. It does have this feeling of inevitability.
The catalyst for all this has been the leaking shower/bath, which we discovered last night has ruined the bathroom carpet. I’m shutting the shower off at lunchtime and ripping up the carpet tonight. It means no shower until the bathroom is retiled and the new shower is plumbed in. Not good! Its just added extra pressure to our relationship which, IMO, is close to breaking point.
Little Miss is unaffected by all this because it doesn’t show while she’s awake but there will come a time that it will affect her.
Perhaps it’s because the only thing I can see our future holding is us splitting up and this time next year I’ll be updating this blog from a tiny bed-sit or caravan somewhere run down and awful. It does have this feeling of inevitability.
